Bruises

while watching glee this morning, louie sat beside me. then i touched his face and softly massage his head not knowingly that he will attack me. i don't understand what triggered him to do that because i always do it and he is calm. whatever he was thinking, i suppose it was not intenional to hurt me. i got bruises. with his two hands and two feet, he grabbed my right hand, then locked his two feet so i won't be able to move the upper part of my hand, scrabbled his nails and tried to bit me. ouch!!! i felt the pain when he released my hand. i didn't scold at him. this was not the first time, i know the wounds will suddenly heal..i saw louie peacefully sleeping at the corner. i smiled. though he brought me physical hurt, he is still our joy. hindi ko kaya magalit.

since last week, i always check my yahoo account as i am waiting for an important email. two weeks have passed, still no advise. nalulungkot ako..i played the hillsong dvd and sing songs of praise to him. i trust his timing..and will keep on praying and waiting..praying and waiting..i fell asleep again and woke up late. eto na naman ang aking struggle - to go or not to go to work. since it is my holiday naman tomorrow, i decided to go. while traveling to work, i can't help myself not to think about the thing that i am waiting..then i received a note. the message was like louie's scratches on my hand. ang sakit..i went to the ladies room to wipe my tears away. lilipas din 'to. nasaktan ako pero hindi ako galit. hindi ko kaya. walang nagbago, i still love the person.

this made me realize how god loves me unconditionally. no matter how many times i hurt him because of my sins, his steadfast love never ceases; his mercies never come to an end and they are new every morning (lamentations 3:22-23). i am still his daughter and he is my heavenly father.

enough for today..tomorrow is another day and i am excited to my date with my two mamas :-)